Rehabing a knee is not fun and games

So the surgery for a torn meniscus isn't bad, really. The recovery was pretty painless and I was back on my feet in no time, literally.

I'd say I was 95% better within 10 days.

This last 5% is driving me nuts, tho.... It's not the knee so much as the hamstring, which has decided to act up. Did I pull it when I was stretching as I so faithfully do now? Don't know.

All I know is this: if I don't do anything, exercise-wise, for a couple days, it's fine. As soon as I stretch or walk for more than 10 minutes, it hurts. In fact, the other night, sitting in a restaurant I had a horrible cramp in that dang hamstring and I had to stick my foot up in my hubby's lap to get it to relax.

So, altho I declined PT for the knee, I will now be getting PT for the hamstring.... due to the rehabbing of the knee.

oy.

oh dear.... oh my..... now what?

Long story, short:

I had applied for entry into a photography show, earlier this week. I was rejected.... on the grounds that the show was for amateurs only, and my website represents me as a professional.

That really frustrated me.

But it also made me stop and think. A lot. All day, in fact.

The question was: am I a professional? Or am I an amateur?

Well, I have sold prints. So, technically, that makes me a professional. However, in my head, clearly I considered myself an amateur when I applied for this show.

I did not want the Center for the Arts' director to think I was trying to subvert the rules, so I sent off an apologetic email and explained my mental dilemma- the "am I an amateur or a professional" argument in my head.

Today, I got a reply. They offered me a show, as a pro!!!

WOO HOO!!!

oh dear.

oh my.

seriously?

eek.

Details

I have come to the realization that I am not a detail oriented person.... or maybe it's follow-thru that I lack.

I can decorate a room to the "nth" degree, every detail thought out, every detail agonized over. But if you can delay me long enough on a piece of it, I'll give up and let it go and ignore that piece. For instance, the ceiling fan in my living room is hopelessly out of balance and the metal on it doesn't match the chandelier in the adjoining dining room. When I bought this house almost 2 years ago, that was near the top of my list to replace. It's still there. Hubby has put me off on replacing it for so long now that I no longer care. Whatever.

When we returned from London, I was going to blog about that trip. I did a few entries on it, but now, the stories are less immediate, less fun to recount, and I can't finish what I started. No follow-thru....

I "want" to be a photographer. I photograph things. I have a website. I have business cards. Now and then, I sell a print or 2. What I don't have is the drive to market myself. I've been to shows; I see how much work it is; I don't think I have it in me to do that.

I need to lose weight. Every morning I wake up and say, today's the day I break old habits and start living a healthier lifestyle. And breakfast is all good. Lunch might not be bad, but by mid-afternoon, I'm needing "something" and it ain't good.

So.

Details or follow-thru?

Or are they one-in-the-same?

And where would I buy some?